It’s been a while since I’ve been here. Self-criticism is a powerful thing and even more so when the critic speaks (unasked, may I add) before we get to make a move. My inner voice is a good testimony to that. The fear of failure, of not being good enough is ever present in me and usually strikes before I manage to act. Even though I want to take on some initiative and despite that I feel it will bring me joy and sense of satisfaction, it paralyzes me completely and usually strikes before I manage to get into action. I can recall many projects that finished before they actually started and ended up being projects only.
In this case, when it comes to this blog, the inner critic is right next to me, sharp as ever, trying to discourage me to continue. To give up on yet another good idea I have to express myself. I decided I will not let that happen and for a good reason. The need to voice my thoughts is still there just diminishes periodically when times are especially busy or rough. But busy and rough is a constant for me nowadays, so I made this new year resolution to listen closely to my needs and to learn to hear them even through the chaos of every day life and to give a finger to the bloody inner critic of mine. I do not delude myself that it will be an easy thing to do but I do believe it’s worth trying and honestly…I owe it to myself. Simple as that. Cheers 2022!
Love, Charlotte!
off ma chest 